A NEW BEGINNING
Part-time deals were not going to be enough to keep me busy or engaged. I didn’t want to do that business with someone else. I loved the freedom and the lifestyle it has afforded us, but my true love for the business was the gift of my husband and getting to work side-by-side with him every day.
We live in an extraordinary time, this was an opening for me, this was going to be my time to create for myself anything I could possibly dream of. Sounds amazing right?
Harder still, how do you decide when you don’t even really know who you are? Sure, I was a wife, a mother, a great business partner—but I didn’t know who I was. I had created a life that was shaped by everyone else’s opinions and ideas of what and who I ‘should’ be, without any regard to who I really was.
The thought of committing to just one thing and making the wrong choice was terrifying. I seriously considered hundreds of options: being a personal chef, starting a “Mary Kaye” like business for women-except around meals, a foster parent, event planning, luxury travel agent, airline stewardess, going to school to get my law degree, a detective, gift shop, flower shop, home manager, personal concierge, interior designer, property manager, health advocate, kid’s taxi, bed & breakfast, crafting center, wellness center, image consultant, children’s bookstore, cooking school, wedding services, nutritionist, coffee & tea shop, purchasing gifts.
So you see my dilemma.
A CONTINUOUS PATTERN
So here’s what I did. I grabbed myself a little notebook, my ‘Little Blue Book’ and threw it in my purse. Throughout the day I started noticing things I liked, things that piqued my curiosity, experiences I wanted to try, qualities in relationships that appealed to me and I wrote them down in my Little Blue Book.
I love Yoga, I love moving and stretching my body in a fluid way that also helps clear my mind and make room so I can hear my inner voice.
I find animals to be fascinating. I experience great delight when I sit and watch the different birds that come to our feeder. I find wild animals are breathtaking and fascinating! I experience great joy when I interact with our family dog—so I pet her and spend time with her a lot more.
I have discovered that I love to write. I resisted it for a long time (Inner Mean Girl), and now I write for me. Of course I hope moms will enjoy and learn from it, but it’s really for me and the pleasure it brings.
My life is very bleak without music. Even something quiet, simply playing in the background as I move through our home makes me feel comforted and calm.
I have come to know that getting to work with other moms is one of the biggest blessings in my life. Being in the company of and being able to support these courageous women fills me up like nothing else!
IT’S REALLY ABOUT THE LITTLE THINGS
If you are feeling overwhelmed, like you just don’t have a minute to spare, or are feeling a tad resentful of the people around you; I invite you to get your own Little Blue Book and open yourself to the magic it will bring.